retail therapy.

seeing you today killed me. 

today: went shopping w/ heather. spent mad money. i needed it. tomm, going out shopping again.  money comes and goes, pretty clothes dont. hahaha i got the ugliest hello kitty collectable character ever. just my luck. its ok tho, hopefully my next one is cuter. (picture above)

 it was so much fun seeing grams and gramps yesterday. getting hair done next week, pretty stoked. schools a drag, dreading packaging design class. its funny how once you let something out of your life, and new things happen all at once. everything is for the better. ill be graduating in a year and a half... and be working soon. current goal: editorial design at vogue. so ill probably be moving to new york after i graduate.  

a big huge thanks to my close girlfriends. i love you guys.

change.

everything is all so good right now. cus i deserve to smile.

one step at a time.

the end of one chapter in my life and starting a brand new chapter.

i was watching sex and the city and i loved this quote.

"maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. maybe you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be." -carrie bradshaw

new chapter in my life? maybe so.

"To live in this world, you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your life depends on it; and , when the time comes to let it go, let it go."

Going through one of the toughest times in my life right now. not knowing whats gonna happen in the next step of your life is the most frustrating thing ever. especially when the next chapter in your life all falls into the hands of one person. i tried to look at the positive points of what im experiencing right now. but i seem to keep reminiscing about the good times i spent with him and its killing me inside. but i tell myself that everything happens for a reason and hopefully its for the best. i assumed that i knew every inch of them... but no, the true colors seemed to come out. do i think it's selfish? pretty much. but the truth hurts but its better to know now then never. the person that matters the most to you can be someone that you didnt know that they can be. its really scary how life is. dont get me wrong tho, im so happy for him in what their accomplishing in. i guess im letting everything out here because holding it in and just pretending to smile is just hurting me more." what kills you only makes you stronger.".. i think thats the quote. hopefully, whatever happens.. ill just learn from it and it'll make me stronger. i dont know what its about you that makes me feel the way that i do.

sorry for such an emotional post. i had to let it out somehow.

break has gone by SO fast. i start school again this tuesday. no more nights of just being out late not caring of the time passing by. ill truly miss it.... until next term enddds.

that is all for now. :)

3 day walking zombie.

one more week of school. so stoked. im literallly a walking zombie right now. i finally got some sleep. i barely got any rest for the past 3 days and my eyeballs were gonna start bleeding any second. 

couple of weeks ago i got a goldfish cus i get so lonely at my apartment. hahahahaha.....her name was ikea. :)     but she died  this past monday. i think it was because i over fed her food. im supposed to give her one pellet 2-3 times a day.... but the day before she died, i spilled about 12 litle crisps in her fish bowl, and didnt bother to clean it up. hahahahaha... not so funny.  AND the pet store guy told me dat im only supposed to give my fish drinking water and not sink water..... but the other day when i cleaned her bowl, i put in sink water cus i didnt want to waste my drinking water. i swear... the first time i cleaned her bowl, it took 6 water bottles to fill her fucking bowl. oh well... my fish was only 19 cents. ill just go buy another one. rest in peace you smelly cheap fish.

so school has been pretty hectic but im kind of excited to finalize all of the projects that i have been getting weeks and weeks of critic on.  heres one of my posters that im about to finalize. the size is going to be 22x33. its for type 3 class. (on the top)

wtf

i dont fucking get this blogspot thing... 

week 11.  

we have 3 more weeks to go.... FIGHTING!, my fellow  accd-ers. 

so... people from england. are they english? or just white.