"To live in this world, you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your life depends on it; and , when the time comes to let it go, let it go."
Going through one of the toughest times in my life right now. not knowing whats gonna happen in the next step of your life is the most frustrating thing ever. especially when the next chapter in your life all falls into the hands of one person. i tried to look at the positive points of what im experiencing right now. but i seem to keep reminiscing about the good times i spent with him and its killing me inside. but i tell myself that everything happens for a reason and hopefully its for the best. i assumed that i knew every inch of them... but no, the true colors seemed to come out. do i think it's selfish? pretty much. but the truth hurts but its better to know now then never. the person that matters the most to you can be someone that you didnt know that they can be. its really scary how life is. dont get me wrong tho, im so happy for him in what their accomplishing in. i guess im letting everything out here because holding it in and just pretending to smile is just hurting me more." what kills you only makes you stronger.".. i think thats the quote. hopefully, whatever happens.. ill just learn from it and it'll make me stronger. i dont know what its about you that makes me feel the way that i do.
sorry for such an emotional post. i had to let it out somehow.
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