real talk.

when im talking to you, you somehow know how to make all my troubles disappear. this is so real.

blessed.

4:25 am

just got home to what was a fabulous ending to my christmas day.
this christmas wasnt really much about recieving, it was more about realizing the wonderful people and advantages i have in life. my life is filled with so much love that i didnt know i was surrounded with until i finally got to accepting it and all the realizations.



i have a best friend that i cant even put to words of how much she means to me. we've been childhood bestfriends since age 8. love dont get stronger than that. we've been thru it ALL, u name it... we've been thru it. shes basically my blood sister.

i have 2 amazing and supportive parents that i cant even put in words of how thankful i am. especially my relationship with my mom has grown stronger. i was recently finally able to open up and tell her about the rough things i have been going thru since my past till now. she knows every. single. secret. i love that she could understand all of it. shes one of the strongest person ive ever met and i hella admire her for that. ive never seen NOTHING bring her down. shes always walking with her head held up high and i hope that i could be half the amazing woman she is.

i have 1 little baby brother that looks up to me for my so far success in what i have accomplished and i love him for that. ive always wanted to be the person he looks up to and comes for advice to. AND i am that person. we talk about everything. we have 2 hour phone conversations about deep stuff and also random stuff.(which ive never thought we'd ever had with him.) hes a pain in the ass at times... but its ONE pain in the ass that i cant live without. <3
i have girlfriends who are always there for me thru thick and thin. i love them with all i got. my ride or die chicks, who are always there in a drop of a dime.

i have this guy... who is showing me the true and mature ways of life. he makes me better in life and as a person that i am. we're always out and open and we're able to talk about anything. hes not someone on the side who just supports me verbally, he knows what to say at the right time and always takes care of me and wen im feeling down. amazing personality, successful career, and fucking always knows how to put a smile on my face...what more can i ask for. ;) i'd tell u more about him...... but you'd fall in love with him too.



im fucking truly blessed.
merry christmas to you, all you peoples . peas.

are you an idiot?

haha, love the last clip of bush. hilarious.

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finals on crack.

we tear each other down, we rebuild each other and then we grow.

1 and a half more weeks of school left. my days and nights currently consist of sitting at my computer for hours (until the sun goes down and comes back up again), coffee, energy drinks, eyes of a zombie, messy house, papers everywhere, dry contacts....just plain stress.
i signed up for my classes next term, but not finalized. which is another load on my shoulders. im excited for break to start. christmas. catching up and more playing with my beautiful friends. but STILL, not all play during this break. im gonna be cooped up at my house working on my website (since im interning in the summer) and im also gonna be getting errands done that are way over due. and of course, gonna go on a couple road trips. hoorah.

on a happier note, went home for thanksgiving weekend. felt so warm and comfortable to be back at my parents house and being able to see my family again. i missed turkey day last year due to my internship in korea. so i was pretty stoked for thanksgiving this year. absolutely delicious. smiles, catching up on whats new, joking around with my brother, hanging out with family. i went back to my house in time for black friday. dad gave me some shopping money so... i fought the crowd and went shopping. so much people at the mall, not good enough sales. i ended up buying a lot of stuff for original price. haha. the best thing i got out of black friday was my 100 blank cd pack for 10 bucks. wahoo.





end.

weekend bats.

tae oppa's bday & los angeles.

two more weeks of school left. this term passed by really quick. for the next 2 weeks, you can find me at school in zombie mode. haha today is thanksgiving and im really excited to see my family. this thanksgiving is gonna be amazing JUST because i missed last thanksgiving. i was in korea interning... and since they dont celebrate thanksgiving, no turkey for me. lols.

things i am thankful for:
1. amazing supportive family
2. my close girlfriends
3. penguins
4. beer
5. my car
6. sex & the city
7. channing tatum
8. shoe shopping... just being able to go shopping.

hahahaha


bye.

carbon copies.

i just noticed today that i am done. i think i dont even care as much about em like i used to.
all of them are carbon copies of each other. haha. its fun to fuck with their heads tho.

facing reality.

it's 3am and i cant concentrate for shit. i hate artist block. what the crazy!? haha, whatever. so.... so much things have been going on these days. ive been experiencing the craziest shit ever that i have NEVER would've thought i would go through. haha... its really funny how life throws you weird twists and turns. i met the cutest french guy ever who just got here from paris. swear to god, hands down the best lookin guy ive ever been with. dresses so fly, always lookin sharp, and made me laugh every minute. but lets just say... culture differences made everything difficult. HAHA. i have no freaking idea why im writting this on my b-spot. but i am. i think im going kinda crazy right now cus im freaking out about my hw.

so this past weekend was insanely crazy. i got into a car accident friday night. i wasnt driving. my friend was. we werent drunk, but we werent sober. hella bad trip. never again....i swear to god, if there was a car behind us, we wouldve spun off the freeway and flew off the ramp and died. no joke. hella reality check. thank god we didnt get majorly hurt. we BOTH had left our cells at my place before we went bar hopping. so basically... we were stranded on the middle of the freeway. pitch black dark. 5 in the morning. NO cell phones. and the car wouldnt budge an inch. thank god for these good samaritans that stopped for us.

so i met this guy and he's a stunt coordinater for action movies and he's also tracy bingham's body guard. (from baywatch) how cool is that. he's a really nice guy..... haha, enuff said. ;)

okay, i gotta get back to hell now. ill be posting up pictures from this upcoming weekend soon. cant wait till this weekend. much more crazy fun nights ahead.

♥

5//wk10 in los angeles & my 2 girls.

frenchie the peachie

meet my french man, peach fuzz. hahaha
straight from paris, isnt he a cutie?

<3

love this.

the motion graphics are pretty sick.
watch it, you'll love it.

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futurama photoshoot//

just a little taste of the photoshoot. for tons of more pictures, go to my myspace.
sucha cool experience. takes a shit load of work. but in the end, it seems worth it. haha

smiling so big that i think my mouth is going to rip.

gentleman.
funny as hell.
simple and cute.
best date ever.

frida.

boredom at 5am

1) Was 2008 a good year for you?
- it had some good moments and bad.
good because i learned and realized a lot about things.
bad because there were things i did that i regret.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
- when ellie and i got drunk, just the 2 of us and got lost in hollywood/la area. horrifying, but by far, the best adventure ever.
AND
when i got an opportunity to intern at korea.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
-when i burned my whole wrist while cooking.

4) Where were you when 2008 began?
- i think i was in the OC

5) Who were you with?
- with my loving family.

6) Where will you be when 2008 end?
- i have no idea

7) Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
- celebrating with my girlfriends for a fresh and new year starting. 2008 HAS to end asap.

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2008?
- i forgot what my resolution was.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
- yes, lets see if i can keep up with my resolution. haha

10) Did you fall in love in 2008?
- yes

11) Did you breakup with anyone in 2008?
- yesn i did

16) Did you make any new friends in 2008?
- i made a whole bunch of amazing new friends this year and
i met a lot of talented and inspiring artists/designers.


17) Who are your favorite new friends?
-secret!

18) What was your favorite month of 2008?
-i dont have a specific month that i loved, but every month had its ups and downs.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2008?
- yes i did, korea.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2008?
- i dont remember. i think i went to vegas once?

21) Did you lose anyone close to you in 2006?
- i don't think so.. let's keep it that way :D

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
- no, i dont really miss anyone. i already have the people that i need in my life. i do miss my dead goldfish, ikea.

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2008?
- THE SEX AND CITY MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!

24) What was your favorite song from 2008?
- too much-crown j

25) What was your favorite album from 2008?
- i dont buy albums

26) Have you gone to any concerts in 2006?
- nope i havent

27) if you did go to the concert who was your favorite?
- i didn't go, damn it

28) did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2008?
- how much is too much? hahaha........

29) did you do a lot of drugs in 2008?
- i am drug free. hug me!

i deleted Q #30.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
- haha..... doesnt everybody?

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2008?
- that your mom is pretty.

34) did you treat somebody badly in 2008?
- im the nicest person ever around. i never treat anyone badly.......... ;)

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2008?
- yeah, but shit happens.

36) How much money did you spend in 2008?
- don't even get me started.......... -__-

37) What was your proudest moment of 2008?
- when i killed a spider ALL by my self.

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
- everyday is embarrassing for me, cus im a clumsy mother fucker

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
- i wouldn't change a thing. everything happens for a reason.

40) What are your plans for 2009?
- my cruise to alaska, internship at a GPK firm, and watch my baby brother graduate.

i need to find myself again.

my favorite topic: love.

its been about a couple months since i ended a chapter in my life and began a new chapter. i've been busy living my life and starting to do the things that i love again. I've learned to appreciate the moments where i can just sit at home and catch up on things i need to do without worrying the other person. did they eat yet? are they hungry? did anything bad happen at work? is he having a good day? you start to realize that you don't have to worry about saying the wrong things to them or making stupid little mistakes to upset them...on top of the other stressful things you have to do. one less present you have to buy for a christmas. one less person to wish happy birthday. one negative thing is: feeling lonely at times and wishing you had that significant other with you. having someone to come home to after a rough day is the best feeling ever. and i miss that. it's okay though. i guess as time passes and as i concentrate on my self instead of someone else, the next man to come across me will be a million times better than the past, cus of the time i waited for them and learned so much from the past.

i always believed in love. but honestly, love doesnt change. the people that are involved in it do. of course, i can be a bitter person towards love, cus it fucked me over big time. of course, after everything came to an end, i felt like my world was broken into pieces. of course, i stopped believing in love. but in the end, the only person you should blame is the person you fell in love with turned out to be a nonbeliever in love. don't blame love.

i think my emotions are starting to run dry now. i want to fall in love again, but i don't think i have any more emotions left to anymore...i'm all drained out now. well, for now.

don't get me wrong though, i appreciate every single moment of my life and the people that actually DO love me back. the bond that i have with my family and i have never been stronger. i have a good amount of close friends and one bestfriend that i love with all my heart. i couldn't ask for more or be any happier. i'll be graduating soon and i've been continuing to meet more and more talented and inspiring people. i've got an opportunity to be interning in new york soon for something that i truly, truly love. but there's just one thing missing.. i don't know what it is yet. maybe it's love, maybe it's just finding myself once again.

never should've left my bubble.

Information graphics class//
_Process of organizing radio commercials.
_Music FM vs. News AM
_Organizing the invisible.


I pulled an all nighter today. I was about to hop onto the 2 south.. and i saw hella news station trucks stocked up. I ended up going to the kinko's by my place instead. took me about 20-30 just to get home, when it shoulda only taken 3 minutes. turns out that there was a shooting at 2am. no wonder.... during my homework breaks, i went outside to get some air... i saw some weird CSI looking helicopters. that explains it. weird that something like this happened in la cresenta. la county scares the shit out of me. weird ass shit like this never happened to me in the oc..what a change. cookoo. its hella scary cus it was right next to my house...




here's the story:

October 8, 2008

GLENDALE -- A connector road linking the Foothill and Glendale freeways is closed this morning after a motorcyclist was killed in a possible shooting, authorities said.

A group of motorcyclists were traveling along the connector road linking the eastbound Foothill (210) Freeway to the southbound Glendale (2) Freeway when shots rang out around 2 a.m. and one man went down, said Sgt. Tom Lorenz of the Glendale Police Department.

Firefighters and California Highway Patrol officers at the scene discovered the motorcycle in bushes alongside the road and its deceased rider nearby.

Investigators initially reported that the man had been shot, however, Glendale Police later said they were not sure if he suffered a gunshot wound.

"I still do not have any determination whether or not he is a victim of a shooting. There have been reports of shots fired. That doesn't necessarily mean he was hit because his bike did go down and he did go off the freeway," Lorenz said.

Officers are investigating the possibility that someone fired shots at the man, causing him to crash his motorcycle.

Lorenz said the victim is associated with the Mongols Motorcycle Club -- a motorcycle gang founded in Montebello in the 1970s.

"We don't know if, in fact, the gang affiliation has anything to do with the situation," Lorenz said.

Other members who were riding with the victim at the time of the shooting are cooperating with police.

The connector roads linking the 210 and 2 freeways were shut down, along with the Foothill Boulevard onramp to the southbound 2, causing traffic backlog during the morning commute.

The roads were expected to remain closed during the investigation.

The northbound 2 Freeway was closed at Mountain Street until 5:30 a.m., when the lanes were reopened, said CHP Officer Anthony Martin.

No arrests have been reported.

let go, let flow.

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