my next toy.

i want this so bad. extremely beautiful. the new itouch.

"HI DAD, christmas is almost here."
muahahahahaha

THATS WHATS UP

Horoscope: Friday, September 26
If your emotions are getting the best of you, it could be that some hidden issues are ready to emerge. You need to take care of those skeletons in the closet if you want to move on.


Week 3 of school and already pulling all nighters. kill. me. now. I feel good about this term, Im pretty stoked. Planning to intern soon, either spring or summer term. not sure yet. summer ended off really good. had a lot of fun. Halloween is coming up, thinking about going on a road trip to frisco!! (the plan. dress up as a soju bottle and go drinking at a sool jip.) haha. just. kidding. president of art center resigned. this past weds was his last day. stupid bastard. school is good. friends are fabulous. everything is good. i just wanna hurry up and graduate and move to new york to work with the big boys. cant wait.



random pictures from the end of summer:



















♥ loves it.

everytime.

i'll be deleting memory.
since i know you dont really give a rat's ass.
watch your mouth, ive been hearing everything youve been saying and everything youve been doing. its not as on the DOWN LOW as u expect it to be. stupid fuck... nah ee mahn cchu muhk uh suh.....

first day of school.

class was sucha drag today... haha, hopefully ill adjust really really soon. i love my new true religions, thanks mom for all of them! loves u. a lot of changes are happenin and im liking it. summer was better than i thought it'd be. i love my friends.

fuck you very much!

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
and look a bit harder
cause we're so uninspired
so sick and tired
of all the hatred you harbor
so you say it's not okay to be gay
well I think you're just evil
you're just some racist who can't tie my laces
you're point of view is not legal
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please don't stay in touch
fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
so please don't stay in touch
do you get, do you get a little kick out of being small-minded?
you want to be like your father
it's approval you're after
well that's not how you'll find it
do you, do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful
cause there's a hole where your soul should be
you're losing control of it
and it's really distasteful
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please don't stay in touch
fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
so please don't stay in touch
Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
and look a bit harder
cause we're so uninspired
so sick and tired
of all the hatred you harbor
Fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please don't stay in touch
fuck you, fuck you very very much
cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
so please don't stay in touch

horoscope tells all

Friday, September 5//
Romantic energies are strong in your chart, but you could find you are clumsy when you try to push things, especially if you are in a new relationship. You might find that it is a bad time to try out that kinky position you found in the Illustrated Kama Sutra right now.



"you are clumsy when you try to push things..."

hahaha, oh god...


ill be who i was made to be, no more depending. nothing. its all more clear to me after today. now i know exactly why the things happened, did happen. thank you so much.

forever deleted.

"i wanna hate you as much as i loved you."




it was bound to happen sooner or later. it just ended up happening today. you seemed exactly how i imagined you to be.

the one that got away

i found this and i really liked it...read it.

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY
Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal



In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "the one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got this one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."