Hi, meet my new lover. Her name is Holga.

So I was assigned this new project and I really wanted an Holga to work with for this topic. So I drove my ass and got one! yay... I've been wanting to get one for a while now, but never came across the time to get one.


My new toy:


What kind of effects does it make, you say?
Like this:

...but it only turns out hella snazzy and tight if you know how to work it. buahaha... sucker.



Today, I was at Union Station for god knows how long. I had three different types of camera around my neck and ready to shoot. The process for this project is pretty intense. I've been spending a lot of money and time for it and it's only been week 3. wow.

It was interesting to see and meet different types of personalities and types of people while I was there. French men, police officer, bum, a security patrol guy... you name it. They were all really friendly and interesting. Thanks to my wonderful friend, nipps who came with me to shoot a couple frames her self. The only down fall was that we weren't allowed to shoot on the platform, but oh well... I shot a couple frames secretly anyways. haha

Finally ate my first meal of the day at 7pm. dead tired and pooped. I got home painted my nails. I was gonna make an appointment with Kev (my manicurist) but they were closed by the time I got home and I definately don't have any time this weekend. boo hoo. So I painted them black. yay. I should start on my editorial hw but I'm major lagging it.

Can't wait for tomorrow! Friday night! yay! wahoo!

On another note:
Thank god, the Lakers won last night. PAT on the back boys!


i'm out, peas.

;

you give me twists and turns and butterflies in my stomach.

new term, new perspectives, new thoughts.

school started.
i took a semester off.
now im back.
intense classes.
surprisingly,
i missed it.
week 2, already pulled 2 all nighters.
too much going on.
wrong timing.
noticing the better in some
people,
and noticing the bad that i dont want to notice
in some.
reaching limits.
masks are always worn.
as well as helmets,
cus life's tough.
i dont know why,
but i dont like being in
glendale as much.
i wanna go to irvine this weekend.
today was a busy day.
went to museum of neon art
and union station.
pictures will be up soon.
i noticed something very important today.
ups and downs, pros and cons.
true colors from the unexpected.
expect the unexpected.
life is weird that way.
that's why its that much harder to trust people.
weird.
this is entry non sense to most.
ask if i care,
cus i dont.
peas.

cherish the diamonds you have in your life, before they're gone.

i just recently found out that the father of this family friend that my family and i've known for years has cancer. he didn't even know that he had cancer until he went to the hospital for just a physical checkup. turns out that he was in his last stage of cancer and there's nothing that the doctors could do to help him. wow. how painful is that.
please keep him in your prayers.

it just made me reflect back on how grateful i am to still have both of my parents alive and healthy. i really don't know what i'd do with out them. like i've said before in my previous entries, i'm so so so grateful to have open and honest relationships with my parents. they're my diamonds.

an unforgettable night: my 21st bday.

summarize the 21.

So, it's gonna be my 21st birthday this sunday. its amazing how times flies by before you know it. It's weird, cus i've always thought that i'd be in a different place when i turn 21. but i'm not. not a bad thing, just different. i've experienced so much from all the years that has passed by. good lessons learned, mistakes turned into a big lesson learned in life, met inspiration people and experienced life experiences that i will forever cherish and remember.


most importantly, i can't even put in words of how much i'm grateful for the supportive, loving parents that i have. i recently shared a piece of information with my mom that i never thought i would ever tell her in a million years. it felt SO right and SO good telling her. we took our relationship to whole different level. now turning 21, i have nothing that i hide from my mom. i don't have anything that i hide from my mom about my past life that i had and the current present life i live. i'm really thankful that I can experience sucha bonding experience with someone that's in my life that i truly love.


friends. at this point in my life i feel like i really have found my true, true circle of friends. it's something that is so hard to have with so many backstabbers around. i love and cherish my friendships. fab-4 ladies to my supportive friends from accd. love them all. they're my gems.


on another note, i'm really stoked for this weekend. my birthday weekend!!! tomorrow, birthday dinner with my amazing family, drinking with my loved ones this saturday, bday dinner on sat, weds, and the following saturday. fun fun fun. this summer is gonna be even more amazing. cruise to alaska and my trip to new york. everything is going according to planned and i've been exposing myself to a better and healthier life style. and i'm lovin' every minute of it.

long time no write

love my fab-4 ladies.


so far:
no one is hiring anywhereeeee. i need a temp job. im taking a semester off from school and resting and soaking up every single of relaxation possible. been meeting a lot of new and interesting people these days. i'll admit, i have been drowning myself in alcohol these days. no bueno. but i love my fab-4 ladies and i cant wait till this valentine's weekend cus we'll be rockin' it <3


on another note:
so i met this guy......... i haven't felt this way in a really really very long time. he completely blows my mind.